There are days that make us question our core beliefs; days that make our hearts ache and threaten to break our spirits. On those days, it's hard to remember why we started or even where we thought we were going. Today is one of those days for us.
About six months ago you might remember a baby girl named Jovi joining our family. She has grown into a beautiful, happy little girl.Today we were devastated to learn that she may be leaving us at some point in the near future. This was not the future we hoped for. These are not the things we dreamed of.
It is tempting to get angry, to say... "I wish I'd never known anything that could cause me to suffer this much..." I have choked on rage and sadness today, self-doubt and self-pity. And I can tell you. This place is so dark. But I know I would walk it a hundred times for a little girl as beautiful and as special as Jovi.
If the day does come when we have to say our good-byes... hopefully I will be able to realize that the question isn't why we weren't able to keep her forever, but how we ever got lucky enough to have met her at all. We have been blessed to bear witness to her life this past half-year.
We wouldn't trade one moment. And we will cherish every moment remaining.
